Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you: Matthew 7:7
Hello my friends!, It has been an interesting week! The enemy has been working hard trying to get me to go back to old habits such as drinking and trying to get me to forget about doing work for my Lord and Savior. I just keep telling the enemy to "SHUT UP" and I continue to move forward in my christian life because this is the path I chose to follow and will continue to follow. I hear the whispers in my ear "you sure wouldn't mind having a cold beer right now wouldn't you" I say NO! because not only it would not be good for my health but I made a vow not to drink anymore. My wife Saturday night told me that God was trying to talk to me through her, so I turned the television off, cleared my head and I heard God telling me to "go out to the world and do my works." I looked up and quietly said "yes heavenly father, I will do what you ask of me." I know we have been through so much for the past two years but I believe you have to go through storms to get to the good times. I know by faith and God leading the way, we will get better not only financially but be better people for it. We have to go through it to get to it.
Thank you and God Bless You!
Showing posts with label Sexual Abuse. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Sexual Abuse. Show all posts
Monday, September 26, 2011
Sunday, August 28, 2011
The Lord Has Helped Me Through This
Hello everybody,
I told you last week about testifying in church last Sunday. After the service, my wife and I got in the car and I realized all of the amazing things and situations that our God has got me through and was with me every step of the way. The first was being sexually abused from the age of 8-11. It wasn't an adult that did those things to me, it was children who were not that much older than me. I could still hate ore resent the two girls who did those things but, I have forgiven them and I have prayed for them so I could finally let it go. I remember when I was child in San Francisco, I almost drowned in a lake in Golden Gate Park. I was going down for the third time when my mother, who never learned how to swim got out in the middle of the lake where I was and pulled me out and back to shore. That was the first time I almost died. Another example of God being with me was ten years ago. I am about to admit something I rarely like to talk about but I feel I have to tell this story because it is an example of God has been good to me. I was very depressed about several things such as my job situation at the time, my first marriage at the time and other things. I was diagnosed with Depression since the age of eight. I got up early that morning to get ready for work, but I decided to kill myself. I went into the bathroom and I heard a voice that said "DO IT!" I opened the medicine cabinet and took a handful of my mother's blood pressure pills. After I did this, I looked into my daughter's bedroom and I saw her laying on her bed asleep and I heard another voice that said "You can't leave her and her sister" I wen into our bedroom and told my first wife what I did. She called 911 and the ambulance took me to the hospital to pump my stomach and to admit me into the hospital. I thought about those things on the way home and I told my wife that "I am meant to be here!" I did not reveal these events that have happened in my life for pity or for someone to feel sorry for me, I revealed these things to let you know how God has been so good to me. God has always had a plan for me, I am just trying to do what he wants me to do. God Bless You for reading this.
I told you last week about testifying in church last Sunday. After the service, my wife and I got in the car and I realized all of the amazing things and situations that our God has got me through and was with me every step of the way. The first was being sexually abused from the age of 8-11. It wasn't an adult that did those things to me, it was children who were not that much older than me. I could still hate ore resent the two girls who did those things but, I have forgiven them and I have prayed for them so I could finally let it go. I remember when I was child in San Francisco, I almost drowned in a lake in Golden Gate Park. I was going down for the third time when my mother, who never learned how to swim got out in the middle of the lake where I was and pulled me out and back to shore. That was the first time I almost died. Another example of God being with me was ten years ago. I am about to admit something I rarely like to talk about but I feel I have to tell this story because it is an example of God has been good to me. I was very depressed about several things such as my job situation at the time, my first marriage at the time and other things. I was diagnosed with Depression since the age of eight. I got up early that morning to get ready for work, but I decided to kill myself. I went into the bathroom and I heard a voice that said "DO IT!" I opened the medicine cabinet and took a handful of my mother's blood pressure pills. After I did this, I looked into my daughter's bedroom and I saw her laying on her bed asleep and I heard another voice that said "You can't leave her and her sister" I wen into our bedroom and told my first wife what I did. She called 911 and the ambulance took me to the hospital to pump my stomach and to admit me into the hospital. I thought about those things on the way home and I told my wife that "I am meant to be here!" I did not reveal these events that have happened in my life for pity or for someone to feel sorry for me, I revealed these things to let you know how God has been so good to me. God has always had a plan for me, I am just trying to do what he wants me to do. God Bless You for reading this.
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